Week 29 -Re-Branding and a Little Let Down

Although today was a bit blah it meant I was finally able to start the re-branding of my blog!!! I am so thrilled. Huge credit goes out to my friend Julie who did the banner and amazing character I've been dreaming of for 6 months. She is amazing and completely captured the vision of an effervescent girl/woman. FYI Julie does freelance work so let me know if you're ever in need of a resource.

I LOVE HER = ME!

As most of you know when I shaved my head during chemo I had this crazy cowlick that looked like a swirl. What I thought was going to be the worst part of this all, getting rid of my hair, turned out to be one of the most amusing. I would catch a glance of myself in the mirror and just laugh and make fun of myself all day. It's my goal to carry on that feeling of finding the happiness in the midst of a bad situation. I think we can all identify with The Girl With The Swirl. I have more progress on the blog pages to go but I just had to release it today!

No Chemo today.
You known the saying, "Plan for the worst and hope for the best?" well that isn't true for me...Ever it seems lately. A critical part of my white blood cell count that fights infection dropped considerably over the weekend. Mind you when I asked my nurse if this were to happen last week "would chemo still be a green light..."and she said, "Yes absolutely." Well that was a lie. My doctor superseded and doesn't want to overkill my bone marrow with too much chemo when I'm down so low. So at best I may get chemotherapy in two weeks or longer..

I was so upset that I had a freaking meltdown in the doctors office, crying and sobbing. Ugh what a sight, but I was rational (besides the crying) and I understand they have my best interest at heart. You have to understand it's like coaching yourself up to go into hell. So when this stuff gets delayed it's like reliving the nightmare of planning for the worst all over again. Plus my poor parents drove 11 hours to get here to to take care of me for 3 weeks. Now they have to go back home and come back god knows when. This also happened the last round in December and what a fiasco that was!  So let's just say I'm all around fed up.

Eventually my family tried to cheer me up with food, which worked. Here we are eating our fat asses off. Mmm chocolate cake!!